this semester ive had a total of 3 massive breakdowns (new record)

1 lasted a day i relapsed and cut myself 

2 lasted like a week of not wantng to get up from bed and staying away from people and having crying outbursts everyday i cut myself more

3 lasted a day too and i also cut myself

i wish i would have gone with those older guys when i was a kid..

i wish he had fuck me up worse..

i wish he had molested me more..

i wish he had taken more advantage..

i wish that guy that was stalking me would have kidnapped me..

i wish i was just broken and not chipped.